To My Best Friend

Through the ups and downs
The highs and lows
No matter what the cost
Or how heavy the blows
You stay by my side
Get me through the day
You wipe away my tears
And chase my fears away.
You’re my bestest friend
Whom I’ll always confide
You just make me so happy
So deep down inside.
Just know that I’m here
To reciprocate the love
Our friendship is timeless
And blessed from above.

United States Earthquakes!

I was looking at earthquake information for the United States and it's amazing how many quakes that are occurring that we don't necessarily know about. The information is there to access however the media/news doesn't really cover a lot of the seismic activity that occurs in the United States. Perhaps they are trying to prevent us from living in panic, however it's obvious from the data that our world is undergoing big changes each day. I'm thankful that none of these quakes have been documented in Illinois. I read that the last quake we had was in the 70's and only really affected Southern Illinois. I remember maybe a year or so back hearing on the news that we felt after shocks from some sort of quake. All I know is I don't want to die in an earth quake and I certainly don't want to experience anything similar to the events that unfurled in the movie "2012"!

thinking...

Many people would probably tell me that I over analyze things. They would probably say that I stress out about the small stuff too much and that I have a tendency to blow things out of proportion. I guess I just have a low tolerance for disappointment and failure. I'm getting used to the idea that there aren't a lot of people left in the world that will genuinely care about your well being or feelings for that matter. I suppose I'm in denial; hoping that deep down inside people are righteous and good. I guess it's not so much denial because in my opinion hope isn't necessarily a bad thing. If I loose hope I loose everything my persona emits.
I feel as if sometimes I'm in search of something that doesn't exist. I don't think that my expectations are unreasonable at all however it seems as if in this day and age what I ask for is just too much for people. I've had my heart broken time and time again and to be honest I'm used to people coming in and out of my life. I'm used to people treating my heart like a revolving door. I guess I should just slow down and re-evaluate my state of mind as I know I've spent a majority of my past trying to repair everyone else’s problems; all the while subconsciously under he impression that what I was doing was making up for the stupid things that I've did before.
My whole life I’ve tried to live up to other peoples expectations not really ever taking the time to truly get to know myself. When someone asks me what I want to do, my answer is always, “I don’t know what do you want to do?” I’ve become so complacent with living my life according to others that I’ve lost myself.

Come Together

I can appreciate and commend that human beings come times of disaster and war and I feel it is good that when it comes down to it people are able to look past their predispositions and prejudice. That being said, I feel it is imperative that we as human beings make it priority to adopt that ability as permanent mind set. A lot of the issues that are apparent in the world today are fueled by selfishness and greed. I am well aware that it would be impossible for everyone to agree on everything but I feel that the ability and willingness to compromise is vital when it comes to coexisting with others. In order for any type of relationship to function normally, whether it is personal or business, there is a certain amount of understanding and compassion that makes things functional. Being stubborn and ignorant never solved anything and it certainly will prevent you from moving forward in life. It seems as if understanding and compassion are qualities in people that are scarce unless proven beneficial to the person debating to display those qualities. If people would unconditionally care for people with pure intentions as opposed to ulterior motives, I feel we would be able to make some progress as a species. It’s time we use are minds not to complicate things and not for personal gain; but to better the world in which we live in for time is not promised and tomorrow isn’t guaranteed by today.

Earthquake Hits Haiti

As most of you know a 7-magnitude earthquake hit Haiti the other day. This is the first earthquake that has hit there in almost 200 years! The Red Cross spokesman Paul Conneally has stated that an estimated 3 million people may have been affected by the quake and that it would take a day or two for a detailed report of the damage. It has been reported that people have been pulling bodies from collapsed homes and covering them with sheets along the roads while passerby’s try to identify the bodies. Tens of thousands of people have lost their homes and many were killed in collapsed buildings. Hospitals of course are unable to handle every victim due to the severity of the quakes. Below you’ll find a map with a time line of the quakes since 1900. In these times of devastation it is important that we come together as humanity. Please pray for the people of Haiti as they need our prayers, help, and generousity in this time of devestation.

It is said that the President Obama has promised aid to Haiti. White house officials said Obama had asked aides to make sure U.S. personnel at the embassy were safe. There are fewer than 20 U.S. military personell in Haiti. Officials said Obama told them to start preparing in case humanitarian assistance as needed. USAID said it was sending a disaster assistance response team. Secretary of State Hillary Clinton said that the U.S. was gathering information about the quakes impact and that the U.S. has offered its full assistance both civilian and military to Haiti.

Here are some random facts about Haiti:

-Haiti is the poorest country in the America’s with an annual per-capita income of $560. It ranks 146th out of 177 countries on the UNDP Human Development Index.

-Haiti’s infrastructure is close to total collapse and severe deforestation has left only 2 percent forest cover.

-After decades of dictatorship, former Roman Catholic priest Jean-Bertrand Aristide became Haiti’s first freely elected leader in 1990. He was ousted by a military coup in 1991 but reinstated with U.S. backing. He was forced out of the country and into exile in 2004 by a rebellion of gangs and former soldiers.

-Haiti has been led by President Rene Preval since May 2006 when the country returned to its constitutional rule.
(graphics courtesy of MSN)

January 5th, 2009

I was slow getting up this morning. I woke up to hear Roxy hacking and gagging like she was going to vomit so I let her out. Evidently I didn’t do that fast enough as when I came back upstairs to lie down for a while longer, my foot ended up skimming a puddle of mucus which totally was disgusting. I spent a majority of last night doing laundry and cleaning up my room. It looks a lot better than it did but of course I still have a bunch of laundry left to finish. I’ll attempt to finish the rest of it tonight. I’ve decided that I’m going to start writing at least once a day. I notice when I do write that I seem to have more clarity when it comes to certain situations.

Work is pretty busy today but of course it’s nothing that I can’t handle. Ever since I’ve adopted a new attitude towards work I’ve been feeling a lot less anxious. I’ve realized that the only time I should be consumed with my job should be during the 8 hours I’m punched in. Once I get home I have to forget about it if I want to be able to relax. I have a lot more freedom at work now as well because I’ve been there so long and so much that I’m pretty much in charge when it comes to a majority of the things that I do. I do love my job because I’m good at it and I’m needed which in this day and age is a blessing within itself.

My father’s birthday is coming up and I’m a little upset that I spent as much money as I did this weekend because I really wanted to get him something special. I think I’m going to lie and tell him that I ordered it and it’s not going to get here until next week because I don’t want him to think that he’s not important. Christmas kind of broke my pocket book anyways so I’m sure he’d understand but I still don’t feel right saying sorry I’m broke because I partied on New Years. I think I’m going to make him something though for the time being like maybe a collage or something. Plus he like’s simple things like that anyways.

New Years Resolutions and Thoughts

With 2010 officially here I have a lot of self evaluation to do. It’s becoming more and more apparent that I really need to go back to school and gain some direction in my life while I still have time. I feel in order to do that though I need focused people in my life to support me otherwise I’ll probably continue to make excuses until it’s too late and that is definitely not where my intentions lye. As I grow older I realize now that the only thing I really desire in life is happiness. I want to be able to laugh and more importantly have a reason to smile. So since it is the start of a New Year I’ve made myself a list of resolutions to accomplish this year.

New Years Resolutions

1.) Loose 40-50 lbs and exercise daily.
2.) Create a game plan to go back to school.
3.) Maintain a healthy and happy relationship.
4.) Start and maintain a savings account.
5.) Move into my own apartment.
6.) Get a second job.
7.) Quit Smoking.
8.) Look good and feel good!

Needless to say I have a lot of things to accomplish this year but thankfully they are all pretty basic things to do if I stay committed enough to them. I’m determined to make this year a transitioning year from the beginning and promise myself that I will remain focused and resilient in my ways. Hopefully 2010 is a prosperous and beneficial year that holds many blessings for everyone.