Disappointment 101

Today I stray from my typical politically fueled blogs and focus on an issue that has been weighing on my mind. True friends are proving to be harder to acquire than I had originally anticipated; or so it seems. For a while now I’ve noticed that the only time people truly care is when it directly benefits them. Although I suppose I understand that in this day and age you have to look out for yourself, I don’t feel it’s appropriate to do so at another person’s expense. It disappoints me to know that despite the fact that I’ve been there for people during their hard times with a helping hand both mentally and at times monetarily, when it comes time for the favor to be returned (even something as simple as borrowing $20 bucks or needing a place to stay for the night) everyone has an excuse to turn their backs. (Whatever helps you sleep at night people!)

In a way I’m glad that things panned out the way they did, even though I ended up at the short end of the stick. I’m grateful to have learned a lesson from all of this. Do not give to those who cannot provide for themselves as a result of their apathetic attitudes. I am disappointed though, as it seemed at first that I had a great group of friends. Unfortunately when it came down to it my feelings and actions weren’t reciprocated. The funny thing about the whole situation is when I needed help, when I needed a place to stay, when I needed someone to talk to, no one was around, people where busy, people had other things to do. Then as soon as someone else needs something, my phones ringing off the hook and now I’m expected to stop what I’m doing and bend over backwards? Sorry but I just don’t get it.

I am sensitive and empathetic to the fact that we all have a lot going on with our lives especially in light of current events and the economy. I know it’s tough out there especially for people who weren’t as blessed as I was growing up. I just refuse to entertain that as a justification, because that justification is nothing more than a petty excuse to get away with something. You can sugar coat it all you want, but any person presented with the facts of what went down would tell me, “Felicia you’re being taken advantage of!” If it smells like a dog, barks like a dog, and acts like a dog, it’s probably a dog!

Let me make sure to say that I’m not writing this blog with the intent of putting anyone on blast which is why I’m not including any names or references to instances between those people. I’m merely venting my frustration with the situation and with the state of things today. All I can say is I tried and was disappointed. I can forgive but I can never wash away the negative feelings that tainted the relationship between myself and the parties involved.

OPEN YOUR EYES!

I’ve been looking into a lot of different things lately as its obvious how much the world is changing around us. It seems as if everyday there is something else tragic or catastrophic happening. I find it discerning that people are so quick to turn a deaf ear to things. Then it seems like the people who do speak up are made out to be nut cases, psychos and terrorists. I understand and respect the fact that the government says that they are just trying to protect us, but I feel that since the patriot act was passed a lot of the rights we’re supposed to have are compromised without most people even knowing. I feel that too many people are sucked in by things the media exposes us too. If I could tell you how many people I knew that just stayed on the internet all day, played video games incessantly, or was consumed with different TV shows you’d probably be in awe.

Please don’t misinterpret what I’m trying to say. It’s not a bad thing to enjoy these types of amenities, but we need to start being more conscientious of what we’re listening and watching. Believe it or not, there are a lot of subliminal messages, pictures, and symbols that are incorporated into things even as simple as commercials and music videos. If you’re not perceptive to these things you may not even really notice it yet be influenced unwilling by it. I plead with you to start listening to the lyrics of the artists you try to emulate or look up to and start holding them accountable for what they are saying.

If you have children start filtering what shows you let them watch on T.V. Stop using the television as a babysitter for your children. I’ve noticed with certain Disney shows where the children are always constantly making the parental figures out to be these bumbling idiots who have no control. Don’t encourage that type of behavior or suggestion. Children are very impressionable as most people already know, so it is important that you monitor the types of things your children are exposed to. It’s important that children are able to actually enjoy their childhood. Have your children play outside more instead of sitting in the house. Enroll them in after school activities, keep them on a schedule, and make sure they exercise. Idol minds are the devils work shop, so stimulate your children, be more involved and don’t let the media raise your child! Our children are the future and we should start teaching them to be more independent minded so that they don’t become tools of a society that will only use them.

My advice to the government is the following: I appreciate the fact that the United States is in its original form a “democracy” and is for the people by the people. I do not appreciate the fact that you continue to undermine the American people by bombarding us with false propaganda, subliminal messaging, and feeding us lies. If you want us to continue working with you on issues and paying you taxes, start doing what the hell it is you’re supposed to do. Stop thinking we’re so ignorant to the fact that you’re continually trying to pull the blanket over our eyes. All though it may seem as our masses for the most part or oblivious to the fact you are nothing more than extortionists, there is still a vast majority of the nation that can see through your petty lies.

Soon your money will mean nothing as its obvious your greed has completely dried out the value of you dollar bill, and although you may have more than us financially, you will never take our souls. One day we will fight back and right the wrongs you’ve created in the centuries that have passed and you’ll be the ones on the short end of the stick. Never under estimate the power of God’s will. Eventually you will be exposed for the rotten and selfish acts you have committed. Unlike you, our Revolution will be sought through without violence as we don’t have to be bully’s to make a difference. It’s time the government starts helping the people, instead of trying to dumb us down and kill us off. Don’t think we don’t know what you’re on and definitely don’t think that the ignorance you’ve encouraged all these years is going to last forever. Eventually when people are sick of turning to you in times of need, as they see you do absolutely nothing but solve problems by creating more problems, they’ll finally reject your help and start solving it their own. We as a society will start solving our issues without you. May God forgive you for the atrocities you’ve created and fueled.

Unanswered Questions

You could offer me money but what would it buy?
Could it purchase world peace; bring an end to the lies?
You could offer me power but what could I do?
Is the power you give me worth anything to you?
You could bribe me with knowledge but what would I gain?
If I knew what you knew would it drive me insane?
You could give me the world but what is the use?
When the things it contains are continually abused?
You keep promising change but when will it come?
Why do people who challenge you always get shunned?
Will your change have a condition or involve an evil twist?
And if so will I play my part or have to call it quits?

Life...

I’m confused about this thing called life.
Unsure of the life I was meant to live; afraid that my path may be lost in time.
So much corruption and deceit forced upon humanity shielding us from our divine purpose.
Children full of hate, absorbing the violence and negativity from what they’re exposed to. Have we lost complete control?
Have we lost sight of what could have been our future?
Contemplating the worth of life on earth now seems so meaningless.
How do you rekindle that passion after years of being oppressed?
Are we so self absorbed we can’t see how our own children are being impacted?
Children only emulate what they see, what their surrounded by.
So why not expose our children to an interactive world in which anything is possible with now one person or entity to dictate the right from wrong?
For once we should be able to experience life in its original form.
Not what they want us to see, not what they want us to think, not what they want us to feel.
To each person living there is a breathing, God fearing soul with free will.
You have the right to decide; the right to choose.
Do you remain passive and content, settling for complacency?
Or do you stand up and demand what you deserve?
Let no man judge you, as only God can.
Let no man control you, as God does not seek to control.
Crave guidance both spiritually and mentally as that is what we really need.
No matter how hard you try to please others, if you’re not pleasing yourself, no one can be happy around you.
Until you look deep down inside and really love yourself despite your flaws & mistakes that you made in the past, you can’t fully live.
Now is not the time for role models, now is time for family, values, love, and God. Freedom of speech has turned into the complete opposite of its original purpose.
We’re bound by the junk the media exposes us to.
The concept of truth has been distorted beyond recognition.
As time passes it seems to only get worse.
How can we let it get where it’s going?
The world is slowly spinning out of control!
What do they know that they’re hiding?
Do we really want to know?
Standing by and doing nothing makes you just as guilty.

Luke 11:9-10