Spillin

I just sit in my bed spillin soul onto the screen
Keep my mind gravitating got me focused on the green.
Cuz with money comes the power and with power comes a toll.
Although power is our enemy and violates our souls.
Everybody want a piece of it; the glory and the fame
And nobody seems to notice that this life is just a game.
From the people that you know to the people that you screw
Each and every single one of them will try to judge you
Dont let them get inside your head or get up in your grill
Just maintain your motiviation and please always keep it'real

2009

Christmas was a blessing this year. As much as I regret spending as much money as I did, I still feel like it was worth every penny to see everyones smile this holiday season. As year 2010 approaches I look back on 2009 and am amazed at how much I've slowed down and focus. Although I'm not exactly where I want to be, I feel like this year was an eye opener for me. It made me realize that if I don't pick progressive things to focus on, that I'll end up no where sooner with no place to go. I thank God for the people that have opened my eyes to better ways and opened the doors to better blessings. I realize now that nothing lasts forever if you don't want it. Only you have the ability to control your direction. If you remain a sitting duck letting everything pass you by while you contemplate why things are the way they are instead of being proactive and realize that life is one set of reactions one after another. One thing that happens to you in life leads to a new way of living. Learning from our mistakes. Moving forward onto bigger and better things. Don't sit still while the rest of the world passes you by, because some day it will all cease to exist, maybe for you or maybe for all of us. So make it what you will and enjoy every moment you have on this earth!

Phone Call Etiquette 101

Recently I gave an old friend from Charlotte, NC my phone number so we could catch up and chat. Shortly after giving him my phone number he called me but I was busy getting ready for the next day and wasn’t in my room to hear my phone ring. I was feeling really tired so I turned my phone on silent and went to bed planning to call him back the next day. When I woke up that morning I saw that he had called me about 10 more times in 20 minute intervals throughout the night. This struck me as really odd and a bit creepy to be 100% real with you. The next day I had decided that I wasn’t going to call him back because he indeed seemed way too desperate to speak with me. He called about 11-12 times that night and had never left a message and if you don’t leave a message chances are it’s not an emergency. If it’s not an emergency there is no reason to call me incessantly all day and night when I don’t pick up the phone. I have a huge pet peeve and maybe it’s juvenile but I don’t really care. If you call me non-stop and don’t leave a message I won’t call you back. If you call me once and don’t leave a message I won’t call you back because in my mind, if you don’t leave a message you probably don’t have anything productive to speak about. To be honest half the time I don’t even recognize the numbers that call my phone because I lost my old phone with my entire contact list about 4 months ago. Focusing attention back onto my story, I was extremely busy Sunday evening because I was going to my Mom’s house with my sister for our belated Thanksgiving dinner. This man must have seriously called 30 times that day and I couldn’t be happier that I never indeed answered the phone. One, dude you’re like 500 miles away and the chances that I’d make an effort to see you next time I was in North Carolina is slim to none. Now that you’ve made it apparent you have stalker like qualities mixed with some sort of obsession disorder you chances of ever seeing me again don’t even exist. Two, if I don’t answer the phone leave a message and when I want to talk to you I’ll call you back. It was nothing personal at first, I just didn’t have time to sit and chat on the phone! Now that you’ve proven yourself psychotic you will never hear my voice at the end of the phone nor see me in the flesh ever again! Three, when you finally do leave a message don’t talk in the lowest possible voice so that no one can hear what you’re saying because I didn’t understand a word you said and you totally sounded like a perverted child molester. I’m sorry to sound harsh, but shit like that really irritates me. I can’t wait until I can finally get a new phone number.

Wednesday December 2nd, 2009: Humans & Politics

Today is Wednesday; Hump Day! I can’t help but sit here and contemplate over everything that’s been going on lately. I watched President Obama’s address to the public regarding the War in Iraq. I’m relieved to hear that they are pulling all of the troops out of Iraq, but I’m terrified that they’re sending 30,000 more troops to Afghanistan. It’s crazy because I had always been under the impression Iraq was this dangerous war zone when in actuality most of the real violence was more prominent in Afghanistan. There is a lot of speculation that Afghanistan is our modern day Vietnam and to be honest my opinions don’t really debunk that at all. Everyone has always known me as a liberal minded hippy and I can’t really argue with them there. If I had it my way, I’d focus more so on our domestic issues as opposed to what others in the world are messing up. I do realize however, that the hostility of the countries we’re at war with could affect our way of living if we don’t enforce some sort of military presence to show that we mean business. Do I think that we should be going to war in Afghanistan? I don’t think any country wants to be at war but unfortunately we live in a day and age where violence and hate is spreading. As human beings we are stubborn and always have to be right, especially when it comes to religion and politics. In my opinion people are too disgruntled over things in which they cannot control which ends up becoming an obsession that spills over to the people surrounding them. Overall, we’re just selfish people no matter what country, race, or religion you derive from. The only thing I can continue to do is pray. It’s very rare that you will persuade or convince someone who thinks that they are right all of the time that there is even a chance that they could be wrong. Until we come together as human beings, we’ll always be running in circles playing capture the flag. Politics are great in theory as well as government, but when you have corrupt and selfish people in charge it kind of defeats it's purpose in my opinion.