For My Dog Ginger!

The love of a pet can get us through even the toughest of times. The love of my dog Ginger got me through everything. She was there when I had my first boyfriend and she was there for the break up. She was there for the good times and there for the bad times. When I felt like I was loosing my mind and had no one to talk to she’d be there to lick me and curl up right at my side. She may not have been perfect but she was the perfect dog for someone like me. When my parents got divorced she was right there by my side getting me through it. Every late night my parents would stay up fighting she’d come to my room and keep me company. She wasn’t just a dog she was my best friend. After my mom left and my sister moved out, she stayed right by my side. I remember one time I snuck her down stairs in the basement one hot summer night and let her sleep with me even though Dad would have flipped if he new she was on the carpet. She just looked at me with that big grin of hers thankful that I let her be close to me. They say a dog is a man’s best friend, but she was more than a best friend to me. She was my companion, my friend, my family, and my confidant. She was the only one who I could tell everything to and I know she’d never utter a word. Even if she wanted to scream it to the world! I’ll miss you Ginger and you were the best dog!! Through everything you stuck by me no matter how hormonal or cranky I ever acted towards you. You stuck by my side and you stuck by my dad’s side. You were everything to us and you always will be… no matter what; always and forever!

Racism

A patient where I work today said the most vile and ignorant thing this morning. I’m sitting here doing my morning duties and he starts speaking to me from up the stairs. I was told I reminded him so much of his daughter. We started speaking and he mentioned how this Hispanic guy that comes to visit him used to date his daughter. I mentioned how nice that was and I told him I had met her current boyfriend that seemed like very nice guy. He went on to say “I can’t keep track of her boyfriends she’s had so many of them.” I responded by saying, “Us women can go through that dating phase.” He then brought up the fact the he was black and went on to say, “I’m from the old school and the old school thinks that is a down grade.” At this point I was shocked that I was hearing such ignorance although it didn’t surprise me. I merely responded with a calm and collected answer of, “Well we’re all human beings now aren’t we?” After that I didn’t utter a word. How truly ignorant this man must be.
What makes a Hispanic guy different than an African American guy first off? Then, what makes him so accepting of Hispanic and so opposed to an African Americans? You can tell his racism is directed to one group of people. I mean I could understand if he was Hispanic and didn’t like his daughter dating outside of that race (even though that wouldn’t be right either but at least it’d make more sense), but he’s Caucasian. I believe its people like him in this world that fuel this unrealistic hatred and spread it to others. Thank God his own daughter still continues to pursue what she feels is right and is dating the man anyways. I’m just so fed up with society and their double standards. I’m sick of prejudice and racist people.
I feel like people such as myself who can acknowledge that race is only related to where you come from and has nothing to do with the kind of person you are slowly but surely are a dying breed of people. I’ve always been a peaceful person when it comes to everything. I’ve been raised to respect people regardless of what they look like or where they come from and respect that everyone has their own different opinions and beliefs. So why other parents can’t instill those same morals and values in their children I have no idea. I think it’s selfish of parents to paralyze their children with such hatred because it’s only that hatred that will prevent them from greatness. No one ever excelled in life because of hate and greed. Eventually karma comes around and balances out what you deserve in life from what you have.
I believe though if you truly fight the good fight it won’t always be easy to get where you want to be in life, but when you get there you’ll know you got it because you deserved it. It’s the devil that makes the right way hard, but if you stay focused and have a strong faith you can get past the obstacles he throws your way. Life is really all about self discovery. God made it so that we had other people like us on this earth to help us learn and help us move forward and stay strong in our faith. We are far more powerful if we work together than against each other. Not every person you are going to meet will realize this and some people won’t be productive to who you are so you have to have good judgment in character.
It’s people whose faiths are compromised that are tools of the devil without knowing it sometime. They can severely misguide you from the right path. So stay focused, be patient and diligent in your faith and in the end you will be rewarded. Don’t always look to the most convenient solution because it’s sometimes cutting corners that get us in trouble. Even when it seems like hope is gone, remember even in darkness there is light.

$36,000 on Nails?!

Okay so I didn't want to have to do it to Beyonce, but she's officially left me no choice. I read an online article today titled, "Beyonce spends $36,000 dollard on Manicures". Let me start off by saying, Beyonce is an incredible artist and that her accomplishments are vast and plenty. I have nothing but the upmost respect for her as a human being and an artist. However, I was disappointed to hear of the nominal amount she paid for a crappy pair of nails; diamond encrusted nails with snakes with rubies for the eyes. The reason they are saying she got these are for some music video. Who even pays attention to someone's nails on a music video. Especially hers. I'm more disctracted by her beauty and her face and body. I've commented on the article wear I found this out with the simple reply of:

"36,000? eesh… i’d much rather spend that money on something less vein… but americans are compulsive consumers… anything to get peoples attention and impress people. It’s kind of sad to me… there are children out here on the streets starving and people out on the streets with no place to go… and some people are spending 36000 on a stupid ass manicure… that doesn’t even last forever and probably didn’t stay on her nails that long to begin with… i love beyonce… and would never diss the woman she’s a diva best believe her… but that is just a little too extreme for me… no matter who gets it… we need to start making better choices and changing this country for the better instead of falling in to fads and trends that don’t last forever…"

One girl replied with this. Reading comprehension among people my age is obviously not valued and obviously she's too lazy to spell:

"Don’t be a hter bytches because you can’t do it likte her.If I had I’d do it too and who cares about tha effin’ attention,not I.Thats jus like sayin you don’t deserve something like that even though you got tha funds.Hell naw,anybody who works hard and loves what she does,deserves it.And for some1 who made 86mill last yr,she not hurtin for shyt and ya betta belive its more comin where that came from.Tha gyrl makes money in her sleep……so hate on something worth hatin on because that could jus as well be you or me,makin money in our sleep.I’m not complainin’,where they do that at?$$$C.R.E.A.M$$$"

So I came back with this:

"i wasn't hating on beyonce merely making a point… and for all those who are saying we’re not in a recession i guess i can agree… the government just pays these people shit loads of money because they keep us consuming… see outside the box people… the only reason they are making the money is because they are distracting us from what is really going on in this world… agree with me or don’t i don’t care… i was never hating on beyonce… it aint trickin if you got it right. but it still doesn’t make it right. Why should normal every day people who do want to work, and i’m not talking about the scum of the earth that live off welfare because they’re lazy, to not find jobs because they’re outsourced, or taken by cheap labor by people who aren’t legal in this country (race set aside because it’s not just a race issue merely and immigration issue) read and stop accusing people of hating when in actuality we’re trying to help society by speaking against the norm. I reiterate… we are NOT hating… just making a point.. in this day and age children think it’s acceptable to spend and spoil themselves not understanding all the hard work that goes into getting what Beyonce has. We need to teach our children responsible spending and proper investing so everyone… not just a selected group of people can move forward! We need to be better Role Models is all i’m saying… other than that Beyonce is awesome woman that deserves everything she works for. I’m just trying to look forward as opposed to staying stationary and dealing with the way things are… its time to clean up our mess!"

Up in Smoke

The Way We Used To Be

I wish we could go back in time.
To when our love felt right
Before the pain and heart ache
Created from our fight.
I wish that you were faithful
And never strayed away.
The pieces of my broken heart
Will never heal the same.
I tried to give you chances
To fix the things you’ve broke
The flames that made our passion burn
Are now just clouds of smoke.

Random Thought

We go through things and make mistakes not to inconvenience ourselves, but to learn. Perfection is boredom in my opinion. How are you ever supposed to move forward and value what you accomplish if you don't fuck up every now and then?

It seems as if people are too afraid to make mistakes to live anymore. We'd rather sit at home and be distracted my mindless media. We're uniformed and compulsive consumers buying into trends.

Thank You For Your Friendship

If only I could put to words
The way I really feel.
I’d thank you for the time you’ve spent
And always being real.
I know sometimes I’m different
And drive you up the wall.
But some how you’ve still managed
To help me through it all.
Our friendship’s so important
It means the so much to me.
If everyone had friends like you.

What a wonderful world it’d be

Ignorance Is No Excuse!

Violence, Negativity, Ignorance
Overflowing our communities
Spreading like an epidemic
Contaminating the lives of millions
Will we forever be oppressed by ignorance?
Or will we wake to reality
Seeing the truth beneath the lies
We need to exorcize this demon
From the depths of our complex minds
Reclaim what is rightfully ours
And make this world a better place
If not for us but the generations to come
Before there is no turning back